In sooth i know not why i am so sad.

I'm a sad panda lately and i'm not sure why. I feel like i don't really have someone good to talk to about life. Don't get me wrong, i adore my friends and can talk to them, but not about my home life or shit that bothers me. I think i need a therapist. Mad shit just erks me lately. And i feel like shit constantly. I truly hate how life is a game of appearances. It's a game that quite frankly i will never win. There's always someone skinnier, prettier, and more stylish than you. And that's life. There's always that girl that your boyfriend would rather be with. And then it's like, well why is he with me? And not these other more perfect girls? It makes no sense. I want to be done with this life. and reincarnated into a better more fulfilled one.